Mindfulness: change, support, stability

Change as a support of stability?
I was not expecting that.

tarot cards, sprawled for the picking :-)

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{Insert witty modern expletive here, or make up one}. I was so spiritually thrown the other day, while reading a tarot casting I laid for myself, I had to reconvene afterwards (a la Humpty D.). Now, after years of dancing with Kundalini yoga, I finally feel that I am married to the path of practice. And at this point in my life, I intend each day to have fun incorporating all things yogic into other arenas and layers of living. 
I sometimes use tarot as a plane of sorts, that inspires and informs visual mediations and intentional prayers, or another kind of meditation if you will. And there I was, just reading my casting as usual when I came across a phrase in the literature that “struck” me. When I say struck, I mean I felt as if the integration of my consciousness of the meaning and depth of the phrase “change as the support of stability," felt like I was the strings and fingerings of a D chord (my favorite) being strummed on a concert guitar with seraphic intent. Actually, more like a medieval harp being plucked by a well-worn matron of the arts. My very being sung. And I could sense it.

We intuitively know and are scholastically reinforced to think that change is good: we should evolve when we learn, it’s better that way. And when we structure our society to value this mantra, the church bells chime to a degree.

I, once, often embraced change with a good attitude. My professional career is diverse and lends to a variety of acute senses, alertnesses. I used to find it easy to walk into a novel experience and adapt quickly, or shift to an incognito mode without major detection. These days, “change” has a new connotation. And crowds are to be avoided. It’s too expensive an effort to have to shield myself so heavily, while navigating possibly new and socially treacherous terrain. Nope. “I’ll pass” is what spirit offers these days. I am very aware of the toll of the stresses and traumas in my life. They have transformed my interests, talents, career, and nature, in a way. 

I can clearly envision the vectors in my present life where change bolsters stability. And yet, I can become quite uncomfortable at the thought. The memories of what I consider the “ramifications of change," are too fresh and painful to really swallow in large bites. 

There are eras of my life that I consider to be unstable.  And in that time, I attributed “change, upheaval, swift decisions” as the culprits of my suffering. In retrospect, “change” sometimes feels like a dirty thing. It’s mixed with the regret of the destructive power of self-sabotage and total shut-downs. 
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Yet, the tarot literature, or the ideas from it anyway, are captivating. Maybe I can use the kinetic aspect of my psychospiritual response as fuel for something beautiful?

Thus Spake Maek 
Oct. 24, 2020

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​Maek Modica has been teaching yoga since 2011 and is certified as a Teacher of Kundalini Yoga as taught by Yogi Bhajan and Radiant Child Yoga.
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