I didn’t see it until now.
Until she shared something, so gently, it might of burst like a warm bubble. “It’s not your fault.” To hear that and try to truly know it? I could only retreat my hand upon my heart and cry. Then I saw a glimpse, with eyes closed. Myself amidst a planting, knees tucked, resting humbly upon earth. Earth trenched by hand and shovel, Wafting in the air. As I notice, my breaths falls into ujjayi. Tilling and caring were not enough though. No amount of watering, or rain, nor warmth would abate. To cultivate and yet yield not. Pushing around in the dirt, searching for unseen fruits to no avail. Sowing pain without restraint. Seeding panic and hurt and strain. On the brink of that next moment... After her quieting words, and my crystalline halt, I found it, The ash, all around. It lay thickly about. Resting upon all, in sight and mind. How was I to know? I, Maek, would maek lye with just tears. Wishing for rain, I yet tarnished my clay. My maek has been burnt of late, Stricken by a lacking, Singed by deceit. To be expected to generate, When bone remains but the only support, Erodes that source. What stood could not, not for long. Not in that state; When fuel barely suffices a flame, And most of the charge is lost to ashen waste. I see it now, all about. In breathing into that, I sense shifting forces upon my heart. Suddenly, I am drawn to novel wakes, and wands. Words come up, and out. Monoliths of transmission, powerful transmutation. It was not your fault, love. You, yourself barely known, Could never bare such a burden alone, With no willing guide to follow. Cry now, but do not despair. Hafiz, and Nesi, will take you. To Temple Grand of Great Regard. To Palace of Divine Mind And the Flow of Life. Their lead you to your Monument of Peace But you know the way. And your secret paths around it’s folds. Wait not. Want more, love. Dream. Aspire. Devote. Play. Practice.
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Maek ModicaMaek lives in Austin, TX and has been teaching yoga since 2011. Archives
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